The World Around Me

Why do I still like you? Is it because you’ve moved on so fast, is it because I realized what I lost? Am I just jealous. Is it because I regret ignoring you and I need to tell you? I know that you don’t like your girlfriend… But why are you still with her? What purpose does it serve for you to be miserable. Maybe it is you maybe she knows you’ve been talking to me and all these other girls, maybe she knows how you feel about her, how you talk behind her back to everyone and then when she finds out you get into a fight you don’t know what you are doing you are so blind to the fact that you are In a relationship and that you can’t be treating her like this. You treat her like shit but yet I still want to be your girlfriend because I feel like itd be different but at the same time i know that I wouldn’t. I want to tell you how I feel but I can’t promise you that I will be in a relationship with you. I want it but I don’t. When I get it I push it away. What is wrong with me. I sit here and cry about how lonely I am, how I’m always the second choice, but it me who does this to myself.